|for my people
||[Dec. 17th, 2007|11:35 am]
|||||sound of the heat blowing in the vents||]|
so yeah, i got a post from g and realized that i hadn't updated in such a long time. i've fallen off the face of the earth, yet again, but i'm gonna try to get myself more in the loop with my people. so here it goes:
work is going well. i finally feel like i am doing something and getting into a routine, which is a nice thing. i'm used to spontenaity, but sometimes i do need some structure in my work life. i just wish i could get paid a wee bit more. :)
chicago, for the most part, is great. i've been here for almost a year and have really grown and gotten to know myself a bit better. i've reunited with some old friends who have settled in the city and managed to pick up some new ones along the way as well.
i have been struggling lately, which has put a big ol' obstacle in my way in saying that life has been 99.9% good. i got myself a new roommate in october who seemed cool when i met her, but it has turned into a fucking nightmare. she's a hard core alcoholic who has managed to become a financial burden to me. she doesn't take care of her pet, and because i am the person i am, i have been picking up the duties of that. she doesn't contribute to paying for household stuff (utilities, toilet paper, paper towels, cleaning supplies, etc). addtionally, because she has no job, she has been eating my food and other things of the sort. despite all the conversations with her where i have put down boundaries and said that this is not okay, things have not changed. it's taken it's toll on me both financially and emotionally/physically/mentally. basically, its like i have been taking care of another person. and i hate it. hate is a strong word and i dont like using it. i also don't like the person that i am becoming because of this situation. there is a light at the end of the tunnel though; my landlord, after talking to him, will not be renewing her lease in mid february. so it's all about maintaining until then.
as a result, i've gotten myself some outside help, just to get me through, but its still not easy. i've been pretty sick lately, (and hiding it well) because all of the stress. let me just say, it's not a fun situation to go home and not find the safety and refuge that home is "supposed" to give. i dread going to my apartment because i dont know what i will find.
other than that, i'm looking forward to going back to michigan although i will be a bit stressed out because my kitties will be in chicago. :( so i'm hoping i can find a friend to drop in on them since i can't trust/depend on the roommate to take care of them, especially since she cannot take care of herself.
so, for my people, i hope to see some of you on my return to the mitten state.